
Yesterday, I braved the cold weather and occasional snow squall and went to White Rabbit for my weekly coffee visit. I got the matcha latte, found my table, and watched the world go by. Tonight, I’m back in town for my Greensburg Toastmasters meeting.
Why am I mentioning these two instances where I go downtown in the same paragraph? Let me explain.
When I was leaving to go to White Rabbit yesterday afternoon, I saw that the price of gas had gone up. In the news right now, you’re probably hearing a lot about the war in Iran. Keep reading, this isn’t a political blog and I’m not going to give my opinion.
Everything present and past has me so triggered, to the point that it will ruin my experiences as I go out and about. It had me coming in hot. Now what does coming in hot mean? Coming in hot is a phrase that figuratively means to approach a situation in a state of anger and tension.
Now, I’m not coming home after a crazy night at work feeling this way. This is how I get from reading things on social media. I say things I don’t really mean (we’ve all done it) and sometimes put it in the comments (before deleting it).
Almost two weeks ago, I posted a blog reminding my readers to be careful how they start their day. I saw an article on Facebook, politically centered, and it got my blood boiling. I won’t get into detail, but it did throw off my entire day.
Fortunately, I blew off that steam and had a relaxing visit at White Rabbit. I ordered a Matcha Latte and watched the snow fall and the world go by. I’m getting pretty far in my NPR book and later this week I’ll begin that new memoir from our governor.
Lesson learned: Don’t come in hot. Instead, be calm, cool, and collected. Also, I’m continuing in my nontraditional fashion journey (when I almost quit earlier this year). Therefore, in addition, I will be brave, confident, and chic.
I finished up Queer Eye a few weeks ago with the final few episodes. Last week I started watching the medical drama The Pitt on HBO Max. I’m only two episodes in and so far I like what I’ve seen. While I’ve only seen a few episodes, I think it’s crazy that each episode covers an hour of a hospital worker’s shift. I’ll have a more thorough review at the end of the month and later in April when I finish the first season. There are two seasons with a third season coming (likely January 2027).
Finally, I want to talk about a writing project I’ve had my eyes on for a while. It takes place during my vacation in June 2024. I was excited to take my week off from work and had some fun things planned. But that Spring, a storm was brewing in me emotionally.
I had embarked on my nontraditional fashion journey since 2021. It hasn’t come without bumps in the road, however. I wasn’t getting clicks on social media that I needed to feel “approved”, and that summed up my 2022. That, plus I came into the year with a few chips on my shoulder. There was the Bud Light controversy in 2023, and I let the talking heads and their opinions get to me. I almost gave up right then and there, but went back at the last minute.
In 2024, it was more of the same as I wasn’t getting clicks. In addition, I let some negative thoughts numb me emotionally. I was at TLI at the beginning of my vacation in 2024 and for the most part, it went well. On the outside.
On the inside, I wasn’t feeling it, and that hindered what was an amazing experience at my club officer training.
In this journey, bravery and confidence has mixed with fear and uncertainty. It didn’t help that the Presidential election results were not in my favor. Yet I didn’t fold up and die.
While I’ve been looking for approval and acceptance from others, I need to find it within myself.
No acceptance or approval needed. Just self-love.











