14 years ago I lost Great Grandma, Aunt Nan, and Gramma within the span of a month. Soon after I began to enter a dark period of my life.
I was working and I even had benefits but I missed school and I missed my friends. I was ashamed of myself because I felt like nothing had come out of my college experience (that’s how I felt at the time). I was competing with my classmates and I was losing. It got really bad in 2008 as I felt like a total failure. I was starting to see my friends from high school and college go off and start their lives, buying houses and getting married.
Things got a little better in 2009 but it would still a few more years before I appreciated what I really had.
By 2013, I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Walking around Slippery Rock University following my friend Gary’s memorial service, I took in the sights and sounds. I thought about the memories I made and realized I was meant to be there. I was still having problems at work with troublesome coworkers (by now I was at WIS). I had a hard time letting things slide and took a lot of things to heart.
My past controlled me for a very long time. I was in a bad relationship with “the person inside me” and realized that if I didn’t end it, that person would keep tormenting me. I’ve recently kicked “them” to the curb and the end result is that I’ve become more confident, not assuming the worst, and definitely not worrying about what others think of me. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
You’ve loved with all your heart over and over and over again. All that love will find its way back to you because you never got it back from them. Here’s some inspirational messages that might be future blogs.
Be confident and don’t always assume the worst.
Be someone who makes you happy.
Learn to love yourself before falling in love.
Appreciate everything you have. Maybe what you have isn’t bad after all.
Have a great Monday everyone. ❤️ you.
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