There is no such thing as the perfect year, the perfect person, the perfect job, or the perfect life. Leave perfectionism behind and see how quickly you grow.
Last year was far from perfect, but it ended well.
This year with everything going on, also far from perfect. But I broke up with the “person inside of me” who controlled my thoughts for years.
The end result is I’m more confident now than I’ve ever been, and I’m living my life for me.
We feel anxious when we fixate on things we can’t control. For me that was college graduation. For a long time, I had a hard time letting go of my past. Mainly my academic years. Just as I began to get better in my studies at Slippery Rock, it was too late and I had to graduate. This left me with a feeling of despair that hung over me for a long time. I felt mediocre for the first several years after I graduated and feverishly tried to recreate my past. I even attempted enrolling again to prove my experience in college wasn’t a failure. I let my past control me for the longest time.
Since 2013, I’ve begun that process of growing into the person I want to be. It’s been a slow process but I think I finally got it. I’ve learned to control those things I have power over. I’ve learned to control how I start my day, who I speak to and what I speak about. I also control what I listen to and what I eat. I’m not letting my past control me anymore either.
I’ve broken up with that “person inside of me” who controlled my thoughts for years.
I’m more confident about myself now and not worried about what others think.
For example, just the other day I got a compliment about my bag from one of my managers the other day and it made me very happy. She even wanted to know where I got it. I ordered it off of Amazon. As I left work that day, my superiors encouraged me to live my life and as Mr. Clougherty always says, “If it makes you happy, go for it.”
In the past I would feel insecure and not get my money’s worth out of an item bc one person would feel uncomfortable or didn’t like it on me saying it made me look bad. That opinion ate me up and I put my possessions in hiding.
I always talk about rocking a nice outfit. Well, rock that self confidence and don’t always assume the worst. Finally, be someone who makes you happy. Have a great night and enjoy your weekend. ❤️ you.
Stylish 🍒 